mile high. and continued.

i had a great time in denver. it was amazingly beautiful and i would love to live there some day.
kristin will be back in omaha thursday. that happens to be the day of my party. just a small gathering of friends.
i go back to work tomorrow. i need to make some money so thats good.

and i love the olympics.

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i saved this post but i never actually posted it. just to inform i wrote the above on wednesday 13th of august. today is sunday.

the party went well. i was hoping more people would show up but the ones that did i really care about. well for the most part. we had a situation, and looking back on it, it is hilarious. oh well. my friends came and we had a good time i think. i feel like people like me now and thats new. like tracy and i were going to go see pineapple express with a group of people when it came out. but they couldnt go until thursday, and thats the day i left for denver. so everyone waited until i came back. do you have any idea how good that feels? amazing. people care about me as much as i care about them.
my landlord said that my check for my rent bounced. well fuck. that puts me in a pediment. shit. i think this is my last month in my apartment. i would like to stay through september, so i dont really have to rush out or anything. but i am so broke. unbelievably broke. and my mom is pressuring me to come home every time i talk to her. and thats like once or twice a day. it will save me so much money to be at home. i would have two rooms, my room and she said i could put my living room stuff in the spare room. my bedroom would stay the bedroom and have my desk, art supplies dresser, and clothes in it. and the spare room would become my living area with my tv and couch and bookcase whatnots. i might even have a bathroom to myself. that will be new at my house. its nice she and my brother understands that i was on my own for a while and it will be weird sharing space with people again. i asked if i could do all the grocery shopping because i eat such different things than what my mom buys and my brother always come over to my apartment and loves the things i have. she said that would be great. so that is also convincing. i need to get health insurance and take daisy to the vet as soon as i move back.
i want to adopt another dog. simply because i want to give a neglected or heartbroken dog a good and loving home. i really like these dogs: toffee and indy (i would change his name to wennie). it probably wont happen. i dont think my mom would want another dog in the house.

i went to my mamas house yesterday morning to pick up some stuff and hang. my dad came by and he seemed really sad. at some point, he was just sitting there and i could see his eyes well up. and i said dad really whats wrong. he said nothing and his voice cracked. and i started crying. i couldnt take to see him sad. its like he has hurt me my mom and my brother so much, karma is bound to get him, but he is my dad. and it makes me so upset to see him sad. i had to get out of the room so i went upstairs to my brothers room and he made me feel better. the thing i love most about my brother is that he can just say something retarded or just make a weird noise or something and it makes me feel so much better. and i do the same for him. we get along really well. i hope if i move home i will spend more time with him.
anways. we took daisy to get a bath yesterday to this place where you do it yourself. it was kinda funky, but it was cheap and daisy is so pretty now. i love her.

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