test.

on monday, i am getting tested. i called planned parenthood and made the appointment today.
i have never been nervous about it before. but i am this time. i can't take anything back i know, but i hope that i am ok. and if i'm not, i think i am going to flip shit.
i know exactly who it came from if its true. say goodbye to your nuts bro.
i just feel like something is wrong. and i want it off of me. i am hoping that everything is fine.

i think the past few days i have really had a huge reality check on myself. this is not the person who i want to be. i am not being who i am. and i am getting in situations that i don't want to be in, and then doing things i don't want to do. i need to start standing up for myself and just say, look bro i don't want anything, at all, so please back off and leave me be.
i am fine on my own. and that's how i want it. but i think the whole world is trying to change that.