i feel like i have know you my whole life.

how do i get the words out right to tell you all that i need to say.
my chest is so heavy and stiff with thoughts.

what am i so afraid of now? i wasn't at all before. now i am. maybe because i know what it is like without you and don't want to feel that again.
it was empty. and i felt empty.
and i thought about you all the damn time.
and i still do all the time. more and more and more everyday.

i need to know.