simply indifferent.

i have been thinking about what sean said. and i am pretty sure the things i said that he didn't like, i was talking about the chirstmas party. he told me numinous times that he wanted to kiss me and that he has always wanted to. and he asked numinous times as well. he also did stare at me like i was livestock. and at the last party, i remember kara telling someone about the fight with sean and matt so thats most likly where i threw that in. he has never been that weird to me when he has been sober so whenever he is drinking i just try to avoid him.
obviously i can't take back what i said, but honestly he is blowing things way out of the water. he was overly rude and insensitive to me. and i didn't deserve it. it is also really weird because sean and i don't talk that much to begin with. like he will message me on facebook sometimes and we will talk at parties but thats it. so whatever.

i use this blog to vent. most of the time it is about the shitty boys i have gone out with. i don't like to talk about school. i don't like to talk about my parents. i don't like to talk about being broke. so i don't. but that is all mostly what i stress about. boys are the last thing on my mind.
i really have been focusing on the people i care about lately, especially kara and brittany. and i think i do tend to feel down at parties as kara has pointed out. so i am really going to work on that. but other than that, i think and so do my girls, that everything else that was said was straight up bull.

oh well. i'm over it.