out on the road again.

he is back. and i didn't think it would happen.
part of me is ecstatic out of my mind. i really really care about him and like him. but part of me is afraid. history could repeat itself. i try not to approach life that way though. somethings are worth the chances and it never pays off to be afraid of everything that COULD happen.
i can't help but accept his return, but not as easily as just said. i am not putting in any effort, which is hard for me. he loves a chase. so i'll give him the chase he is looking for.

let me tell you how it all happened.
he called me. i was shocked. i answered but i had to go to work in 20 minutes so i had to let him go. i called him back a while after i got home from work. we talked and he explained. he answered my questions. i told him, "i didn't want to talk to you to yell at you or hurt you, but i want you to realize how bad you hurt me." he gets it now. he said i am the best girl he has ever met. i know he doesn't just throw out complements because rarely i hear them given to me or to anyone. towards the end of the conversation we talked like normal and joked around. he told me he was going to some movie with some bros. i said awesome, i'll let you go, give me a holla sometime soon.
surprisingly, he did. that night actually. he told me about the movie and about his grades in german. we talked about a lot of things, but nothing real heavy. i laughed about the whole time. we said good night and that was that.

i creeped on facebook friday morning, the next day. one of his friends that he said he was going to a movie with wrote, "tell me about your date." i don't really care. it's all good. he may have went on a date, but he called ME afterwards. he called me in the middle of the night to hear my voice. now i don't know the exact situation and i don't want to jump to conclusions. oh well. he is back and obviously wants me in his life. i will take it all as it comes.

we haven't seen each other since the last night. i would really like to see him as soon as i can.
i can't help that i still like him.