something in the way.

how do you tell someone that they are all that you think about? how do you let them know that without them, no matter if you are surrounded by everyone that you may know and love, you feel completely alone? what are the right words to say without scaring them off...
i wish i knew. i wish i knew exactly the perfect things to say because i feel like if i say one word wrong, i will blow it. it wasn't my fault to begin with, but i still don't want to lose. i am making myself sick with worry. maybe even worrying about nothing. but i am afraid to ask.
i have never not had to work hard for something. i don't know what else to do but try as hard as i can. but he wants the opposite of that. but what do i do if i feel like the chase isn't being chased enough?
i think i know what is going on but you still never know.
i need to know where i stand.

it is a restless sick to confess, but i am saying i need you.
you make it hard not to try.
you make it hard to play the card i'm trying to hold.
and as closely as i may try to read you,
you're on a different page every time.
beats are slow when you are clear from sight and clear from my tight mind. lone steps are paced. and the sky is masked with gray. i cannot breathe life without the beauty you have lit.
as i begin to have doubt, you are right there to remind me that you are what i have been waiting for.