i only have eyes for you, dear.

my love must be a kind of blind love.
i can't see anyone but you.

"i like you sam. i really do."
ok great. you just can't fathom a relationship while you are in virginia. understandable. you are in school. 99% of your time is devoted to vmi, and the other 1% is for sleeping pretty much. it just breaks my heart. i wish i was something i could do, something i could say that would somehow make it work better for you. but i see how you are looking out for me. "it wouldn't be fair" and you wouldn't be able to devote the time to me that i deserve. you have been nothing but honest and sweet to me. and maybe that is just making it harder. it would have been easy to lie and easy to just ignore everything. but you respected me and didn't do that. you treated me how i treated you and you have no idea what it is like to finally get that back.
all i can think about is you. how i wish you were here. how i wish it was your thanksgiving or winter break already.
how i feel is going nowhere fast.

i am behind in school. i have been sick for over two weeks. and i haven't slept tonight. i'm going to eat some breakfast then hit the books. and probably sometime after noon, head up to school and have someone from the writing lab check out my paper so i can turn that in.

chicago: thursday-sunday.
can not fucking wait.