long time no see.

i haven't written this entire year.
this is the first time.

i have realized things about myself i am not completely sure that i like. i devote myself almost entirely to people i care about. i put all my needs last. someday, someone will appreciate this. but for now, i just end up looking like a fool.

i feel like i have so much to say, so much to get out, but no time to do any of it.

i just got back from san antonio about 24 hours ago. i will write more about that later.

i will also write more about someone else later. someone i like. too much for my own good. i embarrass myself every day in front of this person. i am just a complete bumbling idiot around him. he is gong to loose interest, i know it.

anyways. i work 16 hours tomorrow. i should get some rest and worry about writing later.